therapy and therapists
Your day of reckoning will come,
be it during life on Earth or once you are living in spirit.
But be assured that it will come.
Life will start to make you face the truth of all you are refusing to see about yourself.
Sooner or later.
It may even be trying to now.
be it during life on Earth or once you are living in spirit.
But be assured that it will come.
Life will start to make you face the truth of all you are refusing to see about yourself.
Sooner or later.
It may even be trying to now.
Therapy and Therapists
We all need help to heal ourselves, we can’t do it all alone. Our childhood repression was done to us by people, and so it’s people we need to help us heal it. And thankfully we don’t need the same people who did it to us to help us heal it! Marion and I are stand-ins for each others parents. It involves a lot of unconscious role-play. When I look at her I am only relating to her as I related to my mother, father and grandmother, the three major antagonists in my early life. It’s another of the incredible things, when you consider that all of your early patterns were formed by the influences of a certain number of people, so they are stamped all over you inside and out. And so really, I am still that little child with my parents - on some level of reality nothing has changed. And yet I am now a fifty-one year old adult living with Marion, wanting to share my life with her, but I’m not. In each moment, depending on the uppermost pattern that’s dominating my life, I’m still only three or two or five or six months or still in the womb or at my conception, all of which compromises my relationship with her. It drives us both mad as yet another of my actions or words I say makes her feel bad - I being her father or mother to her, as I’m reacting to my father, mother and grandmother by unconsciously seeing her as them. With the worse being that in some way Marion doesn’t even exist for me, as really I’m still at home with my parents! But as I work through my yuk seeing such truth, slowly I’m ending my relationship with my parents and grandmother. And as I ‘grow up’ into the present, I can live a more truer relationship with Marion. So our relationship is evolving, getting better as we stop being our parents for each other and start being the real true individuals we are with one another. There is an awful lot to the psychology of the whole business, far more than any one therapist can help you with. And in the end your partner or close intimate friend will become more of a ‘therapist’ to you, as you will need the intensity of all the day to day little things that go on between two people to stir up your buried bad feelings. And you need the history of being with each other to build so you understand each other, becoming more sympathetic, accepting and loving of each other, that which your parents should have done and been with you, but which you’ve been denied. A therapist can only do so much. And that might be a lot. But in the end you become your own therapist because it’s all up to you - you are the ONLY one who can uncover the WHOLE truth of yourself through your own feelings. And if you don’t have a close friend who wants to know and accept all of you as you are, then I would suggest perhaps you sincerely long for one (if you haven’t done so already). Pray to God for one if God is a part of your life. But long and pray because you want someone in your life who can help you express all your bad feelings, someone who can help you uncover the truth of yourself. And you want this person because above all else: YOU WANT TO KNOW THE TRUTH OF YOURSELF. You want to know the truth of your childhood repression. You want to understand what it’s all about. And you want help. You give in and admit with humility that you DO need help - you can’t do it all on your own. You want someone to help you accept, express and uncover the truth of ALL your bad feelings. And when it’s time for you to progress or move into this way of life, that person or persons will come into your life. Truth is given priority. If your longing for it is very,very determined and genuine, then your spiritual desire: to grow, evolve and progress in truth, will be honoured. It’s part of the condition of having a soul. We have been created to grow in truth. We’ve been conceived for various reasons into life that is anti-truth. You are living denying yourself truth. And so to reverse this involves wanting to heal your childhood repression. And it’s all up to you. You are free to live on denying truth, that is until your soul calls you to account. And you are free to start longing for the truth of yourself, wanting to uncover it THROUGH YOUR FEELINGS. |
The psychiatrist said he was trying to change his patients approach in relationships. First by helping his patient to develop trust in him.
But it’s still all controlling. It’s still not allowing his patient to explore the depth and breadth of his bad feelings, all so he can uncover the truth of them, and finally be released from his early childhood patterns that are keeping them in place. If you can’t express your emotions and feelings, go to a therapist, someone who can help break you through your initial blocks. Someone who can help you get started so you can get something of a feeling for what doing your feeling-healing will be about.
It’s all about listening, it’s absurd that we have to pay for someone to listen to us because no one will or does in our normal life. We have to go away from our people to a stranger to find someone who’ll listen, and they only will if we pay them to. We have to pay for what we should have had naturally and all the way along in our lives, it should be second nature that that’s what we all do, and all want to do with and for each other. But no, we reject each other, our parents don’t want to listen us, so neither do we want to listen. Then we get sick because we’re all gummed up with unexpressed bad feelings, so we have to go to a doctor or therapist for help. And if we all listened and spoke freely, we’d not need doctors or therapists. We damage and hurt ourselves, then set about trying to remedy the problem, when if we were loving of ourselves in the first place, we’d have no problem.
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So much therapy is there to help make you functional in a normal life.
Only what we call ‘normal life’ is still all within a negative feeling-denying state of mind and will.
And this lies at the root of all our problems.
Only what we call ‘normal life’ is still all within a negative feeling-denying state of mind and will.
And this lies at the root of all our problems.
Two ways to go with therapy:
1. To help you feel better about yourself so you can make your way feeling good about living a ‘normal’ life in the negative, like how ‘other people live’. All to help you cope better and feel more powerful in the wrongness. Some of this therapy might involve or touch on healing certain aspects of your early childhood. And a certain amount of feeling acceptance might be involved and encouraged. This therapy helps you stay in your evil feeling-denying state but making you feel better about it, that you can cope with it, even get where you want to go with it. It mostly involves juggling parts of your mind around, adding and subtracting beliefs. Currently most therapy that exists involves this way of going. 2. To help you feel better through the complete healing of your childhood repression and negative state. All this therapy, which in the end will mostly be self-therapy, will help you connect with your early life, bringing up all the suppressed bad feelings as you seek to express them to uncover the truth that’s causing them. This therapy helps you to finally get out of your evil state, to finally heal everything about you that’s making you feel bad. And it affects you on a soul level breaking down your controlling self-denying mind, as shown by the truth coming naturally to you as you liberate your repressed feelings. Currently very little if any of this therapy exists. A little of the second type of therapy can be done in the first type bringing about some profound deeper changes in oneself. But still nothing like the changes that will occur when you do your full feeling- or soul-healing. |
‘I’m not a victim, I’m a survivor.’ You are a victim that survived, that’s all. And there is nothing wrong with being a victim.
Although doing your healing is life changing, you don’t actually do anything to change yourself. You simply keep going expressing your feelings and the changes will happen naturally as you want them to.
The Eternal Guilt:
the rejection of ones child. Eternal pain, waking up to being the worst person in the world. It’s the big one to accept. And you feel like you’re never going to be forgiven. |
A decent psychologist or therapist knows how to get the information out of you, how to get you talking about your bad feelings, not just asking you to tell them all about it, waiting for you to open up and lead the way. For, how can you instantly start expressing all your deeply repressed bad feelings when you’ve never expressed them before. It’s their job to get you to open up, not put the onus on you when you’re the one who’s fucked.
Ultimately we become our own therapist,
seeking to uncover the psychology of our feeling-denial and childhood repression.
seeking to uncover the psychology of our feeling-denial and childhood repression.