spirituality and CR
Why you hate yourself and other people, even God, is because your parents made you hate yourself, other people, and even God.
Spirituality and CR
The doing of your feeling-healing, healing your childhood repression, is a spiritual experience because you are growing in truth. Being spiritual is simply nothing more than being your true self. And being your true self is nothing more than being all you feel. Being truly spiritual is not being spiritual because you do certain religious or so-called spiritual practices. It’s not because you entertain certain beliefs - it has in fact nothing to do with your mind. It is all you feel. You are spiritual now, we can’t be anything but spiritual. But we can be spiritual people who are denying many of our feelings, so denying a great part of our natural spirituality - our natural expression of our personality through our feelings. You may or may not want to be spiritual, or be spiritually inclined, however if you choose to embrace the healing of your childhood repression it will be a spiritual experience - it will be life, as true life, life how we’d live it were we of a positive mind and will, would be: spiritual. We are spiritual beings in flesh bodies who have been born into a negative state of mind and will. Since conception we’ve been forced to take on ‘the wrong way’, and in doing so have compromised and rejected our natural spirituality. We have been stopped from being allowed to freely express ourselves, our personality, by our ‘well-meaning’ parents and carers. Being spiritual has nothing to do with what you might believe about yourself or God or anything else. It has all to do with what you feel - your FEELINGS. We wrongly believe that to be spiritual we need to belong to the Church or some other order of belief, that we need to be New or Old Age, involved in Eastern or Western ‘spiritual’ or religious approaches to living life. However all such things only help us to keep our negative feeling-denying state of mind and will in tact, so they are not spiritual at all, or perhaps you could call them ‘negative spiritual and religious systems’. To heal your childhood repression by doing your feeling-healing is setting out to perfect your own self or natural love, to bring your state of mind and will back into the positive, back into how it’s meant to be - that being, a wholly loving state. And until you heal ALL of your childhood repression and negative state of mind you won’t and can’t be all-loving. You might delude yourself into believing that you are, but that will be your personal fantasy, with the truth of your life not supporting your false belief. To want to heal your childhood repression is to want to live true to yourself, to your soul, to your own innate nature, and to nature and God. It is to embrace your true nature, your natural self, that which has been interfered with by your unloving parents. To live true to yourself is to live true to your feelings. To allow your feelings to lead you through life and not your mind and its beliefs and behaviours. And if you can succeed in doing this - healing all your childhood repression, then you will know the whole truth of your negative condition. You will know what it’s like to live denying such aspects of your true self - you’ll know what it feels like. For reasons that you can find out yourself from God by doing your soul-healing, we have been incarnated into a negative state of mind and will with God helping us to develop our self-denial. And as long as we choose to remain of it and in it, God will keep helping us to further indulge in it. However, as soon as you choose to stop being of it, starting to do your feeling- or soul-healing, then God will help you out of it by helping you uncover the truth of it. And as always: it’s the truth that you must see. By seeing the truth of your negative state, the truth God wants you to see, so will you free yourself of it. And to see, to uncover the truth, to reveal it to yourself, can and will only happen through your feelings - there is no other way. So being spiritual is being free to express ALL you feel, all your good and bad feelings, there is nothing else to it. And as you do this, then you will be led along your true life path by your feelings living the true life God wants you to live. Then you will be truly living the will of God, by living true to your own will, by living true to all you feel. However, if you persist in denying one feeling, good or bad, then you will be limiting and denying yourself your true spiritual growth, your full personality expression - your growth of truth. And to feel happy, really and truly happy; to feel love, as loved as you can feel, will only come when you are living absolutely true - true to every feeling. This being achieved when you have healed all your childhood repression. So be aware, don’t be seduced into so-called spiritual ways and beliefs no matter how noble they might sound if they are all about feeling-denial. Because such things will only be a mind exercise and will not lead you to uncover the truth of yourself for yourself. And also beware, that many such systems will disguise themselves making them sound like they are honouring and helping you to express feelings, however somewhere along the way it will all be being done with the mind, the very thing you want to avoid. If you want to be as spiritual as you can, then live as true to your feelings as you can. Don’t deny one feeling. And keep longing for the truth of all you feel. Your life may not go as you had thought and planned for it to go, however I assure you, you will be led along the right and true path for your souls development. And that is all that matters. And gradually you will ascend out of your pain and hole of darkness, out up into the light, the spiritual and true light of TRUTH! Gradually you’ll become the true you. And if you’re interested in doing all of this but more with God directly involved, then you can visit Divine Love Spirituality. |
Death is not the final rejection You’re not being thrown away. You’re not being banished. You do continue to exist. However it is a normal fear based on all we’ve suffered during our early lives. Countless times feeling rejected and like we’ll cease to exist. In a sense we died over and over every time our parents rejected us. So to actually die means we’re having to face our ultimate fear. No wonder our fear of death is so strong.
Fear doesn’t conqueror fear. Punishing the child for wetting its bed is not going to stop it doing it. It’s only giving you the false power you desire over it. The child is already in a bad way, it’s already very scared, its bed wetting being an outward sign, and it will more than likely be afraid of you - its parent - you being the cause of it wetting the bed. It sure isn’t love trying to stop it bedwetting by punishing it and making it even more scared. And look at how many things you do to your child that scares it - is this being loving? I don’t think so, hating it more likely. And if you can’t see that, then you’re in a very bad state yourself.
When you’re a child you want to fit in, feel you belong, one hundred percent.
So many parents expect their children to stand up and fight when they are threatened, to defeat the bully and not let them get the better of you. And yet all they do is make their child feel unloved.
What we call our conscience is not from God or innate within us, but what we’ve learnt from our parents and carers during our early lives. So we can in our delusion completely believe and feel we’re right in how we treat ourselves, others, nature and our very own children, yet it’s all only what we learnt and absorbed as being right from our childhood. And that can all be wrong. So in all conscience we can believe we’re doing the right thing, even though it’s complete abuse of, and disrespectful to, others. The mother completely believes she’s right in her treatment of her child having no guilty conscience believing she loves her child and would never dream of harming it, and yet she shakes the shit out of her baby causing it brain damage, repeatedly breaking its bones irrespective of the class of women she is. And she can’t see that she’s doing anything wrong. We’re so blind because it’s all how we were treated. It’s all we’ve known, it’s how we see the world. And it can take a lot of waking up to the truth before the blindfolds are lifted from our eyes. Before we can begin to accept and express the pain we are in from the damage caused us by our parents, and the pain we are causing our children being damaged parents.
We accept that people who have been abused often are abusers; however we don’t accept that we’re all abusers.
All childhoods are unloving, unhappy and untrue, only mostly we delude ourselves otherwise. We all have to put on our happy live-loving faces or we've got to admit our whole way of being is bullshit.
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Who are the real EVIL ONES?
Your parents.
Your parents.
Beware the allurement of 'Christian' niceness and forgiveness
It might all sound very good, to love your neighbour and to live with forgiveness and acceptance of all people. And of course, to be all-loving is how so many people want to be. To be as kind, loving and selfless as Jesus... isn’t that what it’s all about? There is nothing wrong with being all-loving only so long as it’s real and true. But the problem is, it’s not real and true, it can’t be real and true, when one is still in ones negative self-denying state. Jesus wasn’t like us, in that he wasn’t conceived into a negative state. He remained perfect and of a positive mind and will. So all he tells us is coming from that perspective, something we can aspire to be like, yet only when we’ve FINISHED our healing. And if we try to be like him without healing our childhood repression, then we’re deluding ourselves that we are loving, and we’re actually being the very opposite: deceitful, lying, and so evil. Too many people want to be all-loving, all-accepting, super-tolerant, never allowing themselves to get angry, always being nice, all at the expense of what really is going on deeper within them - all they want to push aside and not have to face. And trying to live this way is wrong. It’s a contrived and so false way of being. It’s insincere and can only lead to further damage of oneself, burying ones true bad feelings of anger deeper, increasing ones negative state. The Christian 'all-loving' way is designed to jump over all the bad feelings. To be ‘pure of heart’, to eradicate all those ‘evil’ bad thoughts, judgements and feelings, which is only yet more of the same of what ones parents did to one - is yet more bad feeling cover up and self-denial. It’s all going against yourself, using your mind to contrive good feelings over the top of bad ones. Using you mind to try and eradicate all bad feelings, using it to sweep all the bad stuff under the carpet never to be seen again. And some people are very good at this. And by relying on their mind they sing their love and praises for God and all creatures great and small. But it’s all wrong, all heading in the wrong direction - and it’s all being untrue, to oneself and to God. The real and true way to be is to forget about trying to be all-loving, nice, considerate and compassionate, and instead just try to be yourself - warts and all. We need to live true to all we feel, so first, true to all our bad feelings so we can see what they are all about - why we are feeling them, and then we can live true to all the good stuff. If you feel bad feelings, even really bad despicable bad feelings; if you have terribly bad thoughts, and if you are incredibly judgemental, then this is how you are, and you’ll help yourself so much more if you focus on allowing yourself to feel and think such ‘bad’ things. And to also go one step further, by actually admitting them to another person by speaking about them. Yet doing both these things as you long intensely for the truth of why you are feeling and thinking them. You need to know what your negative state of mind is composed off. And that’s going to include all the foul stuff that’s locked away inside you. It’s about allowing yourself to open your Pandora’s Box and see what nasties you’ve got tucked away in that hidden secret place. And what you’ll find probably won’t be nice, it will probably be the exact opposite to your ‘nice’ and ‘loving’ way. And to find all the rotten stuff would be right, as we only want to be all-loving and working at being nice using our minds when we’ve got something to hide, something we’re ashamed of. And none of us deep inside feels good about living an evil negative self-denying life. We feel very bad about it. Were we of a positive mind and will, we’d simply be all-loving without having to work at it, it would be a natural expression of the truth we’d be living, that being of our self-loving and self-accepting state of being. The aim is to become all-loving of yourself, nice to yourself by accepting all the bad you - first. And not to worry about trying to be nice and all loving of others until later - when you’re healed. To heal yourself, to heal your childhood repression and negative state, is the most self-loving thing you can do. And don’t you think you need to start paying full attention to yourself and not worry about everyone else? Don’t you think it’s time you started to go against your parental programming of putting everyone else first, ensuring they are all looked after and well attended to? Don’t you think and feel it’s time you started to look after yourself, give up being the angel person everyone expects you to be, and be truly how you feel? By allowing yourself to accept ALL of your bad feelings is a great act of self-love and self-forgiveness, which can only follow on into how you are with others. We can only be with others how we are with ourself. So if we’re putting on a false front, pretending to be all-loving and nice, keeping up the false smile, then so are we only harming ourselves as we lie to others. If we struggle on doing our feeling-healing each day bringing to light more of what a yuk person we really feel and believe we are, then slowly we are coming clean, slowly we’re honouring ourself, and this can only have positive effects on our relationships with others. Mind you, it may take a very long time before it does, but in the end it will. So once again it all comes down to living true: true to how we feel. And so whilst we’re of a negative mind and will we have to live true to it, so we have to bring out all our bad feelings resulting from it and see why we are feeling them. Then once we’ve fully revealed the truth of our unloving state having healed all our childhood repression, THEN we can get on being like Jesus is allowing the true love we feel for ourselves and all others to be naturally expressed by our positive minds and wills. And once we start living this way, then we’ll be able to get something of a true idea about what Jesus said, about him the person, and what his life was really about. |
Finding out the truth of childhood. The truth of your childhood. And you're not going to find it through any existing religion or mind-based spiritual system.
The parents verify the child’s reality for it, it’s all what the parents say and how they react. It’s terribly difficult to come up out of that imposed parent reality, able to see and feel it objectively. Able to see the truth of what really did happen.
Staying bound up in your religion is the same as staying bound up in your parents. When you set yourself free of your parents, so too will you set yourself free of your religion. Yet unfortunately setting yourself free of your religion is not setting yourself free of your parents. Your parents are your true self-denying religion. Your religion is doing nothing good for you - it’s keeping you trapped in your feeling-denying state. And your feeling-denying state is your relationship with your parents.
The child that’s told its bad believes what its told. It tries to hide being ‘bad’ because it also believes its bad to be bad. Then it grows into being bad when it wasn’t bad in the first place.
The princess is not a princess; the monster child abuser is not a monster. Both are souls, they are the same. So both are to find the truth of themselves.
A parent should never be put out by its child, it should be there wanting the child to be as it is. We make children dependant on their parents for longer than they should be - often even right until the parents death. We should all be there taking care of each other all the way along as a community, more like how the aborigines lived.
So many people focus solely on the physical aspects of life, keep the home right, neat and tidy; the garden, the pets, their own bodies, their looks; the children fed, clothed and schooled religiously and academically. But nothing about focusing on the emotional, mental and spiritual levels. So the child grows up feeling they were loved... sort of... but... but there is something missing. The child feels unloved on these levels having to keep up the fantasy that their parents love them, when all their parents love is the physical life.
A child is there for itself, not for its parents. It should not be sacrificed for them. Your child is not to be sacrificed for you. And nor should a parent sacrifice itself for its child. It should love its child fully honouring and loving itself.
If you don’t want the truth of yourself, all you do will help you keep denying it. If you do want the truth of yourself, all you do, those very same things, will help you see it.
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It’s not about fighting off Satan or the Devil, forget about them;
focus instead on your parents, for in your relationship with them you will find all evil.
focus instead on your parents, for in your relationship with them you will find all evil.