am I childhood repressed?
Why do you feel so hurt, so rejected and humiliated?
Because that’s how your parents made you feel.
Because that’s how your parents made you feel.
Does childhood repression apply to me?
Did I repress things during my early childhood? And, am I suffering because of my childhood repression? How can I tell? It does apply to you, and you did repress things during your early life, and you are suffering as a result. And you can tell by the fact that you do things to make yourself feel good because you are afraid of feeling bad. And really all the bad things that happen to you, you are also causing to happen - all having to fulfil your negative programming. If bad things happened to you during your early forming years, then that's what your program still dictates - that bad things still keep happening to you. All to keep making you feel bad. So do you do the things you do? Be honest, and see if you can feel if you are doing them to stop yourself from feeling bad. So, do you do things to prevent yourself from feeling bad? Are you scared of opening Pandora’s Box? What will happen if you open that can of worms? Can you sense that deep dark hole of... there within you? And what’s that lurking on the outskirts of your awareness - some horrible nightmare? And what about taking a journey into your Valley of Darkness - can you sense you have an appointment with destiny, one you’re trying to put off and delay for as long as you can? And what is your horror of horrors - your darkest secret? And what happens when it’s time for it to face the light of day?
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Consider this:
If you were living a true life, one that didn't need any crutches, one that didn't need anything to MAKE YOU FEEL GOOD, as you just naturally felt good, do you think you'd need to do anything to make you feel good? So why do you do them? Is it not to run away from all those bad feelings you'd feel if suddenly you were deprived of being able to do them? Stop! Don't do it, don't do what you usually do to make you feel good. Don't have that cup of tea. How do you feel? Can you feel the horror starting to rise up within you? Better have that cuppa.
The young child is always right - that is, until it's fucked up by its parents and forced to repress its bad feelings.
The young child instinctively knows what's right for itself - if only it is given the chance. You knew what was right for you, but you weren't given a chance to show it. You weren't allowed to freely express all you felt. |
Everything you do to stop yourself feeling bad you do because of your childhood repression.
Do you...
Drink Smoke Take drugs Watch T.V. Watch videos, dvd's Listen to music Listen to the radio Play on the computer Play with your phone Go to the movies Go to parties Eat junk food Eat too much Have sex Masturbate Play sport Go on holidays Go to school Go shopping Parent, have children Play the stock market Go to church Meditate Exercise Fantasise Indulge in anything Work too much Fill in your time Stop yourself being bored Be too busy Need to feel good |
Are you...
Worried Anxious Frustrated Scared Angry Raging Upset Tired Miserable Depressed Unhappy Sad Crying Guilty Envious Jealous Nervous Sick In pain Suffering Fed-up Suicidal Hysterical Bored Controlling Dominating Abusive Submissive Addicted Suffering Traumatised |
Have you...
Felt bad Felt worried, scared Felt any bad feeling Hurt yourself Hurt nature Hurt your pet Hurt your children Hurt another person Blamed yourself for anything Blamed nature Blamed your child Blamed another person Blamed God Thought about killing yourself Killed anything in nature Killed anyone Wished you could kill Hoped someone would die Cursed someone - yourself Been angry Been angry with yourself Been angry with nature Been angry with your pet Been angry with your child Been angry with your partner Been angry with your parents Been angry with... Been angry with God Been ill Had a cold Had a headache |
Do you hope to...
Better yourself Be kinder to yourself Be self-loving Be more careful Be more gentle Be more considerate Be more thoughtful Be more loving Be more anything Succeed in life Succeed putting our mind to... Not be a failure Make more money Make your business succeed Make a good life Have a family Have a new car Have a home of your own Have new things Have anything you want Have not one care in the world Have it all your own way Have a better future Be happier Not feel bad Have good health Not be sick Have great sex Have happy relationships Pass exams Be happy and content |
Do you do any of these things to feel good?
Do you do and of these things to stop yourself from feeling bad?
Have you done any of these things because you feel bad?
But hang on a minute, from what you're saying, just about everything I do that I enjoy means I'm doing it to escape feeling bad. And if I feel bad at all, then I'm suffering from repressed childhood feelings.
Exactly. And why else would you do them or feel bad?
So, does childhood repression apply to you?
If you are doing anything to prevent yourself from feeling bad, or to lessen your bad feelings, then YES IT DOES.
And you did repress things during your early childhood.
And you are suffering because of it.
However, you may not as yet be aware that you are suffering from repressed childhood stuff, or that your childhood repression is to blame for your bad feelings and problems in life.
But it is.
As your Feeling-Healing will show you.
If you want to uncover the truth of yourself.
And you did repress things during your early childhood.
And you are suffering because of it.
However, you may not as yet be aware that you are suffering from repressed childhood stuff, or that your childhood repression is to blame for your bad feelings and problems in life.
But it is.
As your Feeling-Healing will show you.
If you want to uncover the truth of yourself.
And who caused your childhood repression?
Your parents.
And other influential carers during your early life.
They have (and are causing) all your pain - every problem.
If you are sick, it's because of them.
If you don't like yourself or your life in any way, it's because of them.
If your relationships don't work, it's because of them.
All your woes are because of them.
If you want someone to blame - blame them.
They, as you will find through your healing, are the root cause of everything that is wrong with you.
They, how they treated you, is the reason why things don't go right for you.
They are the reason for your unhappiness.
They are the reason why you feel bad.
They caused it, and you took it all on.
And other influential carers during your early life.
They have (and are causing) all your pain - every problem.
If you are sick, it's because of them.
If you don't like yourself or your life in any way, it's because of them.
If your relationships don't work, it's because of them.
All your woes are because of them.
If you want someone to blame - blame them.
They, as you will find through your healing, are the root cause of everything that is wrong with you.
They, how they treated you, is the reason why things don't go right for you.
They are the reason for your unhappiness.
They are the reason why you feel bad.
They caused it, and you took it all on.
We have no idea. We’re so fucked, so wrong about everything.