healing dilemma
Be aware that truth is only that which you see for yourself through and from your own feelings.
It doesn't come from your mind.
Anything else is only intellectual understanding.
And to live such mind information as truth, will cause you much distress.
It doesn't come from your mind.
Anything else is only intellectual understanding.
And to live such mind information as truth, will cause you much distress.
Healing dilemma
As we are conceived into a corrupt negative state of mind and will, one that means we are prevented from, and are then unable to, freely express all we think and feel, so we only know how to live in this state. And depending on how badly one was treated, how restrictive ones upbringing was, how powerless one was made to feel, determines how well one gets on in life, even how much one can love and enjoy life. However still a life that is anti truth, love and all that is truly good. One that is feeling, and so self, denying. If when young you were treated so as to be aware now as an adult that you feel bad because of your early childhood, being plagued by your early traumas; or if simply life doesn’t go well causing you many bad feelings, then of course you naturally might want to heal yourself of such problems. And deep personal therapy bringing up repressed childhood feelings can help you deal with and even heal the pain and hurt of such traumatic experiences. If you fall over and break your arm, certainly you’ll want to fix it and so off to the doctor. And once it’s healed, then it’s back on with your life, another of life’s experiences having just been experienced. If you get a cold, get sick, something that stops your normal life and it’s good feelings, something that makes you feel bad yet something you don’t want interfering, it’s off the doctor again and hopefully after a few pills, perhaps and operation, you’re back on track, yet another of life’s experiences having been experienced. If something goes wrong in your life, you true to fix it, if you go wrong, you try to fix yourself. This all being naturally how we function in life. And so if you feel bad from stuff coming up about your early life, if you feel traumatised, if you have psychological problems, if you feel depressed, dysfunctional, you naturally want to fix such things, so you go to whom ever you think will help you best. And if they do a good job, then you’re feel better within yourself. You might have gone through a huge experience of seeing all about yourself, your life, your family, your parental relationships, you may have brought up and expressed lots of hidden bad feelings and emotions. But now it’s all out of you, the truth of your trauma revealed, now you no longer feel depressed or emotionally disturbed, it’s on with your normal life. Things will no doubt have changed somewhat, you’ll be different, but still life is out there waiting for you to move back into. And you might pick up old threads, start out anew, carry on as before, but all still, even after all these ‘fixes’ you’re going out there back into so called normal life, a life that is all anti truth, anti you, anti love. And even though you might feel great, is that what you really want, just to be able to get back on the horse and go charging off into your evilness with renewed vigour and feeling good about all you’re doing. And this is what I what I want you to understand, do you wish to heal yourself, to fix yourself so you can simply carry on in what you believe life to be, still in just another way denying yet more bad feelings, even though you might now feel a lot better within yourself about it; or, do you want to be entirely rid of it all once and for all. I can’t blame anyone for wanting to heal a major trauma such as for example the pain of being sexually abused when young, and of course one should do all one can do deal with as one feels, however all I’m trying to point out is, that even if you should succeed on healing such a trauma, that is not healing all your repressed childhood pain, as you’ll still have lots more within you that needs attending to. You may at the time feel you’re rid of that problem and all those terrible bad feelings that have been haunting and terrorising you for so long, you may the best you’ve ever felt, and great, but still there will be more. The whole of your childhood repression is ONE GREAT TRAUMA, and it all has to be uncovered and the truth revealed. It may be composed of many lesser traumas, all of which feel like a huge amount of pain to you, or it may not, but still there will far more to it than what is normally accredited to our childhood repression or any sort of feeling suppression involving our early life. So, for the most part, such healing of early causes is only healing a part of your childhood repression. And you may heal your terrible traumas liberating yourself from their restrictions enabling you to feel so much happier, confident and self-assured in life; able to go out into the world without carrying along all that painful baggage, creating an infinitely better life. However it will still be within the negative. Such healing serving to only really give you more feelings of power and control within your still self-denying life. The healing of your childhood repression as I am presenting it, is to go all the way, to heal ALL of your negative state and not just parts of it. And it will not only include the healing of all your early childhood trauma, but will take you into every area of yourself that is not right and not functioning perfectly and truly. All aspects of your personality that you might be deny or limiting in self-expression because of how you were treated when you were forming all need to be sorted out, looking into, feelings felt when you see were your dysfunction lies, the truth seen, and so healed. All how you communicate with another person, every aspect of your relationship interaction that might not be true, every part of your untrue and false self, it all needs to be addressed. And it all will. All of which will ultimately involve the complete healing of your negative, self-denying will and mind. And ultimately healing your relationship with yourself, nature, everyone else - the world, and God. Doing your Feeling-Healing is all encompassing and will take you so far into yourself that you will out do the need of any help a therapist could provide you with, taking you so far into your feelings that you become self-revealing; meaning, you will reveal the truth of your negative unloving state to yourself through your feelings, and by doing so will come to fully understand and so accept why you are living it; which will then allow you to end living this way - so will be the healing of it, the full healing of yourself. Of course there is nothing wrong doing your feeling-healing with or without professional help to heal parts of your childhood repression, however until you have healed it all, your negative patterns will still be influencing you even though you still may feel a millions better than you did. |
Have your baby at home!
We tell ourselves off - why, because we were told off.
We hold onto millions of beliefs empowered fully by every part of our will as our security against our deeper feelings of feeling so unloved. To face the truth of our mental falsity means we have to let go our false power facing our terrible feelings of not feeling loved. That we feel nothing, that we are nothing, that nothing good will ever happen for us, liberating all the pain of our annihilation.
Acceptance of all your feelings is the way to becoming completely self-accepting. If you’re denying any feelings then there’s no way you can be fully self-accepting. The day it all comes to an end is the day you fully accept yourself. So until that day comes, keep going.
We should all be in great pain, if not sick. All the pain of being forced to go against ourselves is still within us.
We hurt children’s feelings all the time. Parents hurt their own child’s feelings all the time. We have no qualms saying the most horrible things to a child. But we never say (or try not to say) such bad things to another adult. As a child we can’t hurt our parents feelings, they don’t allow us to. So as an adult we’re still that child unable to hurt another adults feelings. But we can still shit all over a child. We don’t respect and try not to hurt a child’s feelings. We’re not polite and courteous to children. Instead we rip them to shreds with our nastiness and complete disrespect.
I stay in my own little world and everyone does everything about me.
Remember: the child always blames itself.
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Just because you weren’t sexually abused or suffered some other terribly bad trauma,
doesn’t mean you are not traumatised by your early childhood.
It just means you didn’t experience something as extreme.
And as you will find out doing your Feeling-Healing,
in your feeling-bad state, all the bad you feel is extreme.
doesn’t mean you are not traumatised by your early childhood.
It just means you didn’t experience something as extreme.
And as you will find out doing your Feeling-Healing,
in your feeling-bad state, all the bad you feel is extreme.