feeling-healing
Feeling-Healing is bringing out all the feelings you repressed during childhood so you can see the truth of them.
And the truth is: why you felt them, why you didn’t express them, why you keep them repressed, and how they are affecting you.
Feeling-Healing is free.
It’s the easiest way to help yourself.
However once you’re doing it, you might not feel that way.
And the truth is: why you felt them, why you didn’t express them, why you keep them repressed, and how they are affecting you.
Feeling-Healing is free.
It’s the easiest way to help yourself.
However once you’re doing it, you might not feel that way.
If you want a meaningful life - do your feeling-healing.
If you want to find meaning in your life - do your feeling-healing. If you want to make sense of that which has no sense to it - do your feeling-healing. If you’re trying to find meaning and trying to make sense in the world and in the lives we live - in your life, and you’re not doing your feeling-healing, forget it, as you never will. That’s because how we live is meaningless and nonsensical - it has no meaning or sense to it. All you think right is, is wrong, and all you think is wrong, is right. It’s all a bit mad really. But that’s what you find out as you do your healing. Nothing how you’ve been made to see it, is really as it is. Your parents told you how you naturally were was wrong, but it was right, however you believed they were right and you were wrong. And during your healing you’ll reverse this, all so you can come back to your true self and be as right as you should have been. Which is as right as you still are, only you’ve covered over this right you with all the wrong.
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Why you feel unloved in any way is because your parents made you feel unloved through your forming years - your feeling-healing will show you that; and it will help you feel all the bad feelings you feel about it. And it’s right that you do feel them, and do feel bad. You have a lot to feel bad about.
We need to be true. How we see things is how we were made to see them as we grew up. We don’t know if things are true or not. Being in an untrue state we can’t know. We have to come back to being true - to being our true selves. So we know we are true.
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You do your feeling-healing if you feel your life is wrong - if you feel you are wrong.
And it will help you to see why.
And eventually it will make you become right.
And it will help you to see why.
And eventually it will make you become right.
Feel unloved?
What happens if you feel unloved - well, what does happen. And what does happen is you can keep going on trying to make yourself feel loved, trying to do all you do to deny your bad feelings of not feeling loved, or you can try and do the opposite, that being to go with your bad feelings. And to do that you will need to do something like your Feeling-Healing. I am presenting this website for the person who feels unloved and wants to find out why, to really find out. And to find out from within themselves - finding their own reasons. Many people say they do want to know, but if they were truthful, they don’t. It’s too hard facing the tough issues and having to confront and accept the truth that maybe they don’t feel loved now as an adult because they didn’t feel loved as a child. Or, if they know the truth that they didn’t feel loved as a child and so still don’t feel loved, then to go with such bad feelings is too hard, involving too much hurt and pain, all of which they already feel and wish would just go away. So what happens if you feel unloved is you can start to speak about it, you can start to express such terrible feelings, all whilst longing for the truth of them, this being what your feeling-healing involves. And it’s an incredible process, slowly bringing up all those dreaded feelings to get them out of you by expressing them, to see why you are feeling them, and then to no longer feel unloved, as you come to love yourself. All I am writing and presenting here is merely for your consideration. I had no idea about any of it before I began to do the opposite with my feelings and accept them. I had no idea I even felt unloved as much as I did. If feeling-acceptance rather than feeling-denial appeals to you, then as hard as it might be, you will find it will answer all your questions and eventually make you feel loved. Your feeling-healing is about coming to accept fully your negative state, which means all the bad feelings you might have about yourself and within you repressed from your early childhood. We’ve all been made to grow up into a self-denying state of being, that being shown by our feeling denial. Some people have what would seem to be a more extreme childhood in that they were treated very badly by their parents, others more moderately so, so having good feelings about their relationship with their parents. Whatever it is for you, your healing is designed to take you back into yourself, to end your feeling denial through feeling acceptance, and then for you to be completely as you are - true to - your negative state, all so you can fully understand it by being fully feeling conscious and aware of it. And when you have achieved this, then you will be free to move on into living in a positive state of mind and will, forevermore fully accepting all that you feel, all that you are, and feeling really good and loving about it all - about yourself. Our healing is a transition from the negative to the positive, however first of all we have to become more fully, or completely true to, our negative state, so such love and happiness, even though within yourself you are feeling much better as you accept all you are, might still be yet to come, dependent on your full acceptance of your unloving state, your full acceptance of yourself.
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Doing your feeling-healing is a process. It actually starts, and hopefully ends (I’m not there yet). However I’ve been through enough to know it’s a process, and you’re taken along by it. It’s like swimming down a river, the current takes you, and all you have to do is keep your head above water, this being done by continuously speaking about how bad you feel, and longing for the truth of such bad feelings.
You can start your feeling-healing anytime. You might already be doing it without even being fully aware that you are, or without being fully committed to doing it. Any form of therapy, or self-help; any inner investigation that requires you to express bad feelings to uncover the truth of them, is it. Only, when you make a full commitment to finding the whole truth of yourself, then it becomes the beginning of your ascension of truth - the beginning of living truly as a spiritual being.
Your feeling-healing will take you through healing yourself to natural love perfection. You’ll be able to live in the world or in spirit perfectly happy in your self-love. And then if you want to grow further in truth, you can embrace longing for directly, and partaking of, God’s Divine Love, therefore including God as your Heavenly Mother and Father personally in your life and completing your soul-healing.
If your life is making you feel like shit and you suspect or know it’s because of repressed stuff from your early childhood surfacing - or trying to surface, then embracing your feeling-healing will give you a focus, a point of working on yourself. And you will see that slowly the picture will unfold for you; slowly the whole truth of your relationship with your parents and early carers will become clear.
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When you can just say what the right feeling is you are feeling, then you feel good - you feel you exist.
The disease is your parents
Actually it’s your parents you are fighting, not the disease. Your parents caused your disease. It’s your parents who are making you sick - no matter how old you are. If you weren’t interfered with by your parents, you wouldn’t get sick, as they’d be no reason to get sick. My parents said, the disease is the bad thing, look out, it will get you if it can, however through my healing I’ve come to realise they are the bad thing using the disease to take my attention away from them. They are evil, not the disease. The disease is only doing what it’s designed to do, to show me that I am not right, and not right because they made me not right. My parents made me believe I am bad, so it’s right - I believe - the disease should come and kill me. When I focus on my parents being my disease, then the natural disease has no cause to harm me, so I don’t get sick. As much as I believe I have to fight and eradicate the disease, I have to fight and eradicate my parents negative unloving influences. I am doing this through my Feeling-Healing. All my attention needs to be turned to how badly my parents treated me, not how badly the disease is treating me. When the disease makes me feel bad, then I can use these bad feelings to see the truth of how, why and when my parents made me feel the same feelings. And when I’ve seen the truth of all they did to me, expressed all such repressed feelings out of me, then I have no need of such help from a disease to make me feel bad. I will no longer be needing to feel to bad, as I no longer have such repressed feelings in me. We’ve got it all wrong. We see the disease as our enemy, the evil one out to get us, when really our parents are the Evil Ones, who did get us. We all too quickly blame the outside world, when really it was the inner world, the one with our parents we need to blame - our parents themselves. We grow up living as adults in the world our parents created for us, and if that includes disease, then you can thank your parents for it. The world is your enemy - the world of your parents. Your parents were not your friend. Keep Going...
Keep speaking about how bad you feel - all the bad stuff, just keep slogging your way through it. And keep longing to see the truth of it, the truth will come, you’ll see. And slowly you’ll be taken further back into yourself, into your early childhood, so all the things that make you feel bad as an adult will help you feel the same bad feelings you felt as a young child. And when it gets really hard, when you feel like you’re going to die, or breakdown and go mad, or rage and smash and kill, you keep going, just keep speaking these bad feelings to your friend. You never stop speaking about all your feelings. And eventually, when you’ve felt you can’t get anymore demented, things will clear, the truth will come, you will understand; and then you’ll be ready to take the next plunge deeper into yourself, to feel even more demented. All you can do is keep going, that is if you do sincerely want to uncover the whole truth of yourself for yourself. |
There is nothing new in the feeling-healing process or in most of what I write. It’s all been said and experienced before. I’m only putting it altogether based on my own healing experiences.
Everything I have written has been new to me. I was completely ignorant of feelings and anything to do with them before I began my feeling-healing. All I am writing is a part of my healing, my desire to express myself, all I understand and feel. This being what my healing has slowly awakened in me, as I’ve slowly come back to myself, been able to connect with myself, and been able to identify and relate to my true self. All as I grow in truth.
As you reveal the truth of yourself - the truth of your feelings by speaking about them, so your healing takes place. There is nothing else you need do.
If you want to make sense out of your life, then doing your feeling-healing is the only way to make sense of it all. The sense and understanding will come. It might be hard to accept at first as it starts to shed light on just how rotten your early life was, that being if you’re not aware of it being so, but as you connect with all your buried feelings, it will become the only thing in life that does make any sense.
Are you aware of how much energy it requires and just how stressful it is keeping up your false front?
It’s very important, you MUST work hard at all times to keep your mind occupied, all so you will never feel your bad feelings. It's the way to be a complete success in your life.
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How wonderful it is to talk and talk with someone about all that comes up through the day.
It’s so necessary to give yourself the time to do so.
It’s so necessary to give yourself the time to do so.
How can you be a good listener if you were yelled at to LISTEN TO ME! by your parents? How can you be sympathetic, sensitive to and caring for the other person when your parents didn’t listen to you and make you feel cared about? How can you listen when on very deep levels you fear them, feel hurt being rejected by them, are resisting all they say to you? You can believe you are a good listener, but it’s only listening with your mind, something you can train yourself to do. And something you can do so you look like you’re paying attention all so you don’t get yelled at, but secretly you’re off miles away in your head. And then when your own child is calling out to be listened to truly, how will you be able to do that, when your natural loving ability to listen has been crushed out of existence.
During our Feeling-Healing we don’t actually have to give up anything - you don’t actually give up the television as a part of doing your healing. You give up, by expressing it out of you, all the hidden repressed feelings within you that are making you need the television as a tool to help maintain your feeling-denial. So when you’ve healed the need to deny such feelings by fully accepting and expressing them, you won’t need to run away from them, so you want need the television to help block them out. And then you just feel uninterested in it, you simply don’t want this feeling-denying thing in your life as you’ve no longer got any need for it. So out it goes.
Feeling-Healing and this website is not intended to offer any quick fix solution. Healing yourself of your childhood repression is a long agonising commitment to uncover the whole truth of your self- and feeling-denial. The Feeling-Healing principles can be applied to any specific problem or bad feeling you have, and indeed will bring relief from them and possibly even heal some of the underlying issues - enough at least for you to feel better and be able to get on with your self-denying life; however if you're seriously committed to healing ALL of yourself, not matter what this takes, then you'll be in for the long haul.
We’ve got to turn everything around and ‘look in’. And what are you looking into is the truth of your relationship with your parents. So many people are trying to look in, but they still don’t understand what it means and what they are really meant to be looking at. We have to ‘come back to ourselves’, however we can’t do that whilst our parents are still within us preventing us for being our true selves. You can’t be yourself with your parents standing in the way. You’ve got to heal your parents out of you before you can be the real and true you.
Give yourself time, a long time, a very long time to accept all you feel, all the good and bad feelings. Give yourself time and long to know the truth of all your feelings - why you are feeling them. Time is needed for the experiences to happen to make you feel bad so you can accept your repressed feelings.
You are suppressing and so keeping repressed your true self by refusing to accept and express your bad feelings. When you start to do your feeling-healing and accept your bad feelings, then all you’re really doing is just allowing what’s already within you to start coming up.
So the truer we become to our untrue state the worse we should feel. And the more you feel good in your negative untrue state, then the more you are denying your true self. We should never feel good because we’re living untrue to ourselves. Therefore our good feelings are false.
In the end you come to realise that you feel scared, very scared, and that it’s right that you do. Because in an evil feeling-denying world, how can you feel any other way.
You are very scared - and it’s okay to admit it. |
You won’t remember the actual situation or circumstances, so all you can do is speak about all you feel, and gradually it will come back to you, perhaps not so much in vivid picture memories, but in feeling-memories.
The disease is your parents. It’s how it’s making you feel that is important. The same feelings your parents made you feel. There’s no need to get sick if you keep acknowledging how sick you already are.
You can pack your mind full of information, ideas, concepts, beliefs, knowledge, but it’s not going to help you one bit to do your feeling-healing. And all the time you spend stuffing it into your mind is time you are denying yourself working on your bad feeling expression.
Can you wake yourself up to wanting to see the truth, or is it something that just happens naturally to you governed by your soul when the time is right. Or are they both the same?
All our traumatic shocks equal our illnesses.
Releasing your traumas is only a patch up job if you’re not doing your Feeling-Healing. If you don’t express yourself you can’t move on. There’s no growth, no development of you as a person, as a vital personality in Creation. Our healing is expressing all those parts of us that weren’t allowed to be expressed. So if you don’t express yourself fully, nothing happens, you just remain the retarded seed waiting to grow properly.
To do your Feeling-Healing, to heal your childhood repression, means you’re going to be looking right into the face of all your hurt, horror and pain. And you’re going to have to feel it. It’s no small thing.
Your mysterious unconscious is nothing more than your early childhood and all that’s repressed within it.
We only get sick because of psychological shit from our early childhood. So we talk it out.
Who feels sorry for all of us?
It’s a pity we can’t all feel sorry for each other. |
Why aren't I healed yet?
It's about the development of your true self. It's about slowly bringing out into being that 'you', the you that wasn't allowed to come out. It's about being able to express all those parts of your personality - of yourself - that have not been allowed to form or have been seriously corrupted. It's about living true to yourself through the ongoing acceptance and expression of your feelings. It's NOT about 'healing' yourself to feel better in your feeling- and self-denying life, so you can get on living the life you think you should be living with your mind. It's about living the life your feelings lead you to live - the true life of your soul. And why you're not healed yet is because you've still got more truth to see about yourself, about your negative feeling-denying state - you've still got more repressed feelings hidden inside you. So keep going!
It's about the development of your true self. It's about slowly bringing out into being that 'you', the you that wasn't allowed to come out. It's about being able to express all those parts of your personality - of yourself - that have not been allowed to form or have been seriously corrupted. It's about living true to yourself through the ongoing acceptance and expression of your feelings. It's NOT about 'healing' yourself to feel better in your feeling- and self-denying life, so you can get on living the life you think you should be living with your mind. It's about living the life your feelings lead you to live - the true life of your soul. And why you're not healed yet is because you've still got more truth to see about yourself, about your negative feeling-denying state - you've still got more repressed feelings hidden inside you. So keep going!
Do your healing and find out how fucked you are - it’s great fun!