will-healing
Why do you feel so powerless?
And why do you seek power?
Because your parents denied you your natural power,
controlling and dominating you.
They made you feel so powerless.
And why do you seek power?
Because your parents denied you your natural power,
controlling and dominating you.
They made you feel so powerless.
Made to do another's will!
How would you feel being made - forced - to do another persons will? What if someone in your life was forcing to you live how they said, not allowing you to have any freedom to choose how to be yourself? What if you were given a little freedom, BUT ONLY if you did mostly as you were told, and mostly things you didn’t want to do, things you wouldn’t choose to do. And what if you were made to do another’s will for many years, so many that you forgot what it was like to do your own will, and you became dependent on the other person having to do what they said. How do you think being made to live this way would make you feel? Do you think it would make you want to SCREAM! And yet when you screamed you were told not to and forced against what you felt you wanted to do, yet again being made to do what the other person wanted you to do. And how do you think it feels to be a child? |
The parents mistreatment of their child make it feel jealous and angry. Then the child is punished for being jealous and angry. The victim is punished not the perpetrator. And yet we’re all victims child and parent alike.
The child has to learn it can’t have its own way - that’s how most people parent. We cry when we don’t feel loved, when our needs are not being met. So we learn we can’t feel loved, or at best maybe be loved a little, and all on condition - which is not true love.
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Your feelings are your true self.
Not your mind.
Not your mind.
Will-denial
As we were growing up - to a more or lesser extent - we were made to do another’s will. Thus creating our self-denial, the denial of our own will, and so our negative state. Being forced to do another’s will, mostly the wills of our parents, is the worst thing that can happen to us as we’re growing up. To literally form in the presence of more dominating wills kills our natural self-expression, confidence and self-esteem, preventing us from being our true selves. It ruins us, traumatising us, turning us into false people and vile monsters, people who are living untrue to themselves - untrue to all they feel. All of our problems not matter how big or small, no matter what they are, result from the problems caused by our will-denial. We might blame ourselves, each other, even God, but when you do finally uncover the truth of why you’re feeling bad, you will see it has to do with the way your parents had power and control over you - how they dominated your will subjecting you to their superior will. In some way we all feel powerless and so do all we do to compensate for this. We do all we do in life trying to gain power back, and some of us of believe we are more successful at it than others. And on the surface of it that might appear to be so, however what does being successful in a negative, evil, anti-love, anti truth and anti life state really do for you. Are you proud of being evil, of having a successful life in the cesspool? The doing of your feeling-healing is really the healing of your will. Your will was forced to go against you (you were forced to go against yourself), to deny yourself; and your healing is your bringing yourself back out, healing your will so it’s on your side. Every time you accept and speak more about your feelings; every time you uncover yet more truth of why you are denying them, you are healing your will, gradually bringing yourself back to perfection. And when you move into the deepest hurt parts of yourself, those areas within you you’ve hidden the most, then you’ll be dealing with all the aspects of your will-denail. And shit it feels bad when you’re down there. You feel so will-less. |
Our Feeling-Healing - the healing of our childhood repression and negative state of mind and will, is really our: Will-Healing.
All so we can become fully self-expressive. All so we can have true relationships. All so we can live true to ourselves. What is true self-love:
accepting all you feel and allowing yourself to express all such feelings. We’ve got to have the experience ourselves so we can tolerate, understand and sympathetically relate to other people and creatures.
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If you stop the child’s right (anyone’s right, even animals and nature), stopping it being how it wants to be, in a nice or angry way (both being forceful), it’s abuse. It’s abusing another’s will. It’s subjecting them to your will against their will. And that’s what causes all the damage in us during our forming years. And the ‘nice’ and ‘loving’ way of having power over another is in many ways even worse than being outwardly aggressive and angry, as it makes the child believe its wrong, so changing itself. It turns the child against itself. However it’s not you who are wrong, it is them. But a child can’t see that. This is how it was for me, it being all so confusing. I became them, as if I were against myself, telling myself and everyone else how they must be. I was the great 'knower' and the great 'teller'. And all the while believing I was right, as I believed my parents were right.
You’re disturbed, acknowledge it!
Bring your disturbance out through feeling expression.
Bring your disturbance out through feeling expression.