illness
We get cancer because of our childhood repression,
not because we don’t have enough antioxidants to knock out the free radicles.
If it’s time for your soul to show you you’re sick, no amount of antioxidants are going to do you any good.
not because we don’t have enough antioxidants to knock out the free radicles.
If it’s time for your soul to show you you’re sick, no amount of antioxidants are going to do you any good.
Why do we get sick?
We get sick because we’re being untrue to ourselves. And we can tell we’re untrue because we deny many bad feelings. We’re supposed to live expressing ourselves as perfect souls of love. And if we did we’d never get sick. Sickness only comes to show us we’re not perfect, something’s not right within us; that we’re not expressing our soul-personality the right way. It comes offering us a chance to get more in touch with our bad feelings... or to deny them even more. By being conceived into an imperfect (negative) state of mind and will as we all are, we’re born, if you like, ‘behind the eight-ball’. Our soul is inherently perfect, however our parents living untrue to themselves, means that with their immediate influence on us at conception, we’re imperfect to begin with. So it’s only a matter of time before we express this in sickness. And when the time is right, sickness comes to show us that we’re going the wrong way, it comes to help (if we allow it to) wake us up to the fact that we’re not as we should be. So in our negative state, in our unloving condition, in our evilness, we’re sick. Some of us might not look like we’re sick on the outside, but we are on the inside. And when we are sick, and we can see or feel it, then we’re getting closer to the truth of our anti self state. We’re conceived into a negative state by negative parents, they themselves having been brought into it by their negative parents. So by the time we’re an adult, we’ve taken over their negative unloving ways, doing such feeling-denial things to ourself. And it doesn’t matter how loved we might feel by our parents, still it’s not enough love, and not love in the right way or how we need it. So we grow up feeling unloved to some degree, even if we delude ourselves we feel loved. And feeling unloved can only have one effect on us, it makes us feel bad. And feeling bad without expressing such bad feelings, ultimately makes us sick. So we get sick because we feel unloved and don’t express all our unloved feelings. We do all we can to cover them up, to not acknowledge them, to keep them secret from ourselves. We grow up having repressed a huge amount of bad feelings as children, still repressing such feelings as an adult. And at some point our soul makes us sick because we can’t go on as we are denying so much of our self. Our sickness and illness doesn’t just come out of the blue, not so far as our soul is concerned. It brings them on, it allows the bugs and viruses to affect us, it makes the cancers develop. It makes it all happen so we can feel bad, the very same bad feelings we’re refusing to acknowledge, the very same bad feelings we felt as a child but weren’t allowed to express. It may be hard to understand, but the pain, all the bad feelings you feel when sick, are the same bad feelings you’re already feeling, always feeling, have felt ever since you refused to feel them. You feel them unconsciously with your sickness only serving to bring them up into your consciousness. And it does this so you have to work harder at denying them, to show yourself something’s not right within you. And if you want to heal yourself of such repressed feelings, understanding why you’re repressing them, then you can use your bad feelings brought about by your sickness to do so - to help you uncover some truth about your negative unloved state. You can do this as part of your Feeling-Healing. Or, if you don’t want to know about or have anything more to do with such bad feelings brought on by your sickness (until they have to manifest another way) , then you can go to the doctor, you can take your medicine, and undergo whatever treatment you need to help you rid yourself of your illness and pain, to once again do what you’ve always done: suppress your bad feelings and continue denying them. And if you persist in doing this, then one day your pain and sickness will get so great that you won’t be able to deny and dismiss it. And even if death gives you some relief and respite from it, even seemingly a whole new pain and illness-free life in spirit, still at some point in your spirit life the pain will resurface as mental, emotional and spiritual pain, there once again to remind and show you that something is still not right inside you. And inside you, is, inside your soul. So the theory is: if you weren’t living in an anti-love self-rejecting state, if you weren’t living untrue to yourself, then you’d never get sick, as there’d be nothing within you that wasn’t perfect, so no sickness would be required to alert you to the fact. You wouldn’t have any bad feelings buried deep within you, the very same bad feelings your sickness would be making you feel. And you wouldn’t be suffering from your repressed childhood state. You are given medicine to make you feel better.
You become addicted to the medicine. Then you have to make yourself sick so you can have your stress reliever - your medicine. And all because when you were young you got left too often in your stressed state. Then you found or were given things to help you relieve it. It never took it away only relieved it. And so the pattern formed. |
We get sick because we're living untrue to ourselves.
We get sick because we're denying so many of our bad feelings. We get sick because we're denying ourselves. Sickness comes to show us the truth. One day it all has to come to an end within you.
We all have to give up living untrue to ourselves and embrace a new way. We all have to become born anew, that being born into living true to ourselves. And this can only come about when we embrace the whole truth of being untrue. I feel really bad about myself, although they told me I am good and happy and don’t feel bad.
My body through my rashes shows me that I am vile, bad and ugly; it shows me the truth they wouldn’t allow me to see, the truth I have kept hidden from myself. My rashes have come since I’ve started doing my healing. Since I’ve wanted to know the truth of myself. Hiding your bad feelings will only make you more sick. Then being more sick you’ll only feel more bad feelings. And so you’ll have even more bad feelings to hide. And hiding these will only make you... And on it goes.
The disease, and the monster person, are the truth of our condition.
All the rest is superficial and false. Nothing but a show. A lie. Being untrue IS SICK!
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Stress
Do you want to know what stress really is? It’s the amount of effort you have to exert to maintain your untrue self. Your parents put a huge amount of effort into ensuring you couldn’t be your true self. And you put an equal amount of effort into ensuring you did what they said. So now you have to keep going, keeping it all repressed, and that makes you stressed. You are very upset about living untrue to yourself, only you probably don’t realise it because you’ve accepted that how you are is normal - but it’s not. So what you think is stressing you: your hectic life, financial, health and emotional problems, is not what’s causing you the real stress, they are only the things in your life to help you see and feel something is wrong, that you are not living true to yourself, true to your feelings. And trying to take these symptoms away is not dealing with the real underlying problem, that which was caused long ago right the way through your early childhood. We all live in a traumatised state, only we’ve been forced to accept that it’s normal. So all day long we feel deeply stressed and very unhappy about it, only we don’t allow ourselves to acknowledge it. This adding only more stress to our already stressed-out state. |
If you were taught to lie, then you might not know what you really feel. They probably would have told you how you felt, so you keep lying to yourself about your feelings.
And lying makes you sick, because you're already sick by needing to lie. Our whole life is a lie. We're lying to ourselves all the time that we're okay, when we're not. When we're really very sick. |
Intrinsically we’re good, however we’re all trying to be as bad as we can.