repressed and stolen childhood
Our repressed and stolen childhood - that's what we're suffering from, that's what causes us all our problems.
Repressed childhood
The cause of your repressed childhood is your parents. Parents are not meant to tell their child how it should be forcing it to be as they are. As parents we are only meant to be there to support our child coming into being, it knowing how it wants to be, it all contained within its own soul. As soon as the parent starts to interfere, stopping the child be as it wants to be, and making it be some other way, damage is done, this damage causing its childhood repression. For all of us, because we all grew up damaged as a consequence of our parents telling us how to be, we have all experienced a repressed childhood. That being, we were suppressed and them had to keep that suppressed of ourselves repressed, locked away deep inside ourselves never to come out. And all that repression is the pain of our not being allowed to come out and freely express ourselves, all of which we have to one day liberate and see the truth of, when we set about doing our childhood repression healing. As children we’re not supposed to be told how to be, we’re not supposed to be made to be as our parents are. If we want to be as they are, that should be left up to us to decide and choose for ourselves. We are not them, we can’t be, so they have no right trying to force us to be. We are only meant to be wholly supported to be ourselves, free to express all our thoughts and feelings as we want to express them. Not controlled or conditioned in any way. I am in one mental crisis after another, in mental breakdown mode continually, and I’ve never been in any other state. I’ve only deluded myself that I’ve felt all right. But underneath the truth is I’ve not ever felt good, not from the first moment of my conception. Our Stolen Childhood
That's what it will feel like, as if you've not had a proper childhood, because you didn't have one. It was taken from you, or rather you were prevented from having it how you should have had it, had you been properly loved and nurtured. And as you become aware of this dealing with it by accepting and expressing all the pain through your feeling-healing, so the full extent of just what you've been denied you will become apparent. And you will feel just unfair it was, and how you've missed out on so much. And how it is all such a shame, and such a pity that it couldn't have all been so good. But the further you progress in your healing, the more you'll come to see that in fact it was alright, and oaky as it was, and further still, even good that you had the childhood you had, because of all it has done for you, even though it's all be done through the negative. And in the end you'll have no regrets, no longer even wishing it had been another way. And all because you will have by then fully accepted yourself, all coming about as you uncover the whole truth of your repressed childhood. |
Be honest, express your feelings - the truth of what you’re feeling.
Marion and I made an agreement to help each other bring out all our yuk. So we try and say to each other all those horrible, terrible, ‘I hate you’ feelings. If we feel bad at all, bad about the other person, how they are being, how they are treating us, we say it all, no matter how bad it is, no matter if it means it’s the end of our relationship. It’s all in us, all we’ve wanted to say to our parents, and now we’re using each other as stand-in parents so we can finally say it all to them. We yell and fight and tell each other we don’t love them, and how much we hate them, and hate how they do what they do, and we say we’re leaving and splitting up, and it’s all so horrible and vile with us both feeling totally mad in it all. And then once it has all come out, we settle back into being with each other again, feeling better that we’ve got more yuk out. And we keep going, being dragged - as that’s how I feel - back into and through all the bad feelings we felt when we were young.
I’m one big repressed tantrum, holding in the RAGE!
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Children are not evil, and yet parents think it’s their job to get the evil out of them.
Get that look of your face!
Get that look of your face!